Scribbles from My Life

Hello Sunshine, I am back clic-clacking the keyboard. Right now I am sitting in a cafe in Houston,TX. It's one of those sunny days when I decided to sit in a nice and quiet cafe while reading my books. Although, er-herm, no more novels. It's time to grow up. So recently I have graduated from College and now I am in Houston accompanying my sister doing her training. In front of me sits Teddy The who came all the way from Purdue to visit us (or her, actually) :P How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie. That is the book that's opened in front of me. In an attempt of learning marketing. The book has been a great read so far..and a wake up call too. The first few chapters goes like this: 1. Be genuine 2. Smile. A lot. 3. Be a good listener. 4. Remember people's name. This half year has been crazy. The clock that was ticking to adulthood, the new people I met and a bunch of other new things and thoughts of the future had been pretty sc...

Click-clack. I love the sound of my keyboard. The feeling of writing something on a blank page and just filling it up with words. OH IT HAS BEEN TOO LONG. I am getting really rusty, I read too little books lately and my writing just gets worse and worse each day. It was just a few days ago when a friend of mine mentioned that she has found this dusty blog by chance (ok, it can't really get dusty but yknow what I mean). I figured then I should revisit and started writing again because my brain doesn't really retain memories well and so writing helps a lot for someone like moi. The problem is.. Just a few weeks back I got my first written assignment back from my Professor. I had no idea whether to laugh or cry to see so may red underlines for my spelling and grammar mistakes and dayummm, I am in college. Definitely a bad sign. So this held me back from writing. again. She must be being incredibly nice (or afraid that her students would curse her) that she gave me 158/160...

Have you ever wondered what is your purpose being born into this ever-so-complicated mother earth? This is one of those rare days when I actually get to sit down alone in the Union, sipping my sweet smoothies and biting away the Turkey Melt Crepes I ordered from this lady who was uber friendly. The time when you spend alone will inevitably brings you to another world- the world deeper than just meets the eye. So while munching away, I got my brain thinking:" Why am I here?" I have asked the same question again and again and for most times, I could not find the answer. I hated where I am and how I am. School is not my cup of tea and most times I am left wondering what is going to be out of me after this phase of life. Will I ever be a successful person? Is there anything I can strive in at all? There was a point where I blamed God. I blamed my family. I blamed everyone around me, pretty much. However, reflecting back, I do have a great family that has been supporting me...

This is Summer. Wake up at noon, Took a long cold shower, Cook lunches, Back to laptop, Sleep. This is how Summer goes. Maybe it is just me and a couple of my lazy Summer companions. It feels weird when finally a break is a break. I used to head back home every Summer holiday to meet yet another routine aside from what I had in school on normal semesters. Daddy is my loyal alarm clock while Mommy is my scheduler. I'd be up and running for the whole day if I were to be home. But not this time. This time is going to be the first time I am staying over in my cozy apartment with nothing much to do. While the heat is getting more intense out there, so is my laziness. It feels so weird when I can feel so free browsing anything on the web, watching all the trashy dramas and rolling around my bed when those activities serve as my run-away activities from school work and blaaahh during the normal days. But I guess that is human, we complain no matter what is given to us. Few more ...

“We do not need magic to transform our world. We carry all of the power we need inside ourselves already.”  ―  J.K. Rowling When I was younger, I used to wonder where does the rabbit that appears out of a sudden from the magician's hat came from or how can a man kept a few meters long ribbon in his tummy and remove them again as and when he wanted to. Then as I grow up, I saw more and more incredible things happening around me that is more than just rabbit out of the hat. magic was exciting back then but the magic that is happening right now is more than scary. If magic is about things that are appearing or disappearing out of the sudden, then magic pretty much happen so constantly in my life. Have you ever meet certain circumstances that were beyond your imagination? Like striking a lottery, for example. Or losing things/someone so suddenly? Like death of a relative/friend for example. Aren't those sudden happening make you wonder why they actually happen? I'd say th...

Reporting from my empty bedroom under the Spring weather here! Hey! So, school has been a little easy on me this week. Last week's gargantuan amount of homework and exam killed my soul. This week's been a lot better with many of the homework cancelled and no lab report due. I guess I should say yay to this but then again the sudden change of no deadline chasing after me feels just so weird. The right thing to do is of course by studying for the upcoming final exams but well, let's not get burnt out too early;) Today's been another lazy day. Youtube has been a good friend of mine under this weather. I turned down my friend's offer of going out in exchange of having youtube videos accompanying me. While browsing through all the random videos (fret not, there is no dirty stuff in what I was browsing), I found something that caught my attention and decided to watch it. It's called the Radio Galau FM. It's an Indonesian movie and I found it so easy to relat...

Mess. Is something people avoid from having. Whether it is just a simple thing like stacking the neatly ironed clothes or in a bigger picture, life. I am having this super big mess right now in my head. The time when things just got so jumbled up and I don't know where to start to arrange them in place. It's seriously depressing. So I took the time off from that and decided to write again. Cos as always, writing makes me feel better(: School is obviously an  institution that drive my initially sane mind into a state of tomfoolery. It is a place that kills so much of my self worth. Why do we have to be judged by the exam scores we took? Is that even fair?  And the homework deadlines..gosh, that is a lot scarier than ghosts haunting your dreams! They haunt you sleeping or awake. It's really a lot to take for me to arrange on what to study first and what comes later cos they just fight within me to be picked first and I don't know where to start. With graduation co...