Scribbles from My Life

Mess. Is something people avoid from having. Whether it is just a simple thing like stacking the neatly ironed clothes or in a bigger picture, life. I am having this super big mess right now in my head. The time when things just got so jumbled up and I don't know where to start to arrange them in place. It's seriously depressing. So I took the time off from that and decided to write again. Cos as always, writing makes me feel better(: School is obviously an  institution that drive my initially sane mind into a state of tomfoolery. It is a place that kills so much of my self worth. Why do we have to be judged by the exam scores we took? Is that even fair?  And the homework deadlines..gosh, that is a lot scarier than ghosts haunting your dreams! They haunt you sleeping or awake. It's really a lot to take for me to arrange on what to study first and what comes later cos they just fight within me to be picked first and I don't know where to start. With graduation co...

Heartbreaking. when something so dear to you finally leaves you, you usually will feel so stranded. That is how I feel after my Spring Break leaves me. Okay, that is a little dramatic but really, I could give up so much just to get it back right now cos school just hurts me right through my skin and bones. Miami and Orlando gave so much to me.. The warm air, the relaxing days, the laughter. What would I do to bring it back to me? The first week of classes after such a wonderful break will usually be the toughest. it is the time when all the devils come and attack you. The first one would be the Professors. They are so ready to take the opportunity of killing whatever happiness left from your break in the very first week they saw you. Homework and exams would be their number 1 poison to leave you lying flat on the ground. And not to make it better, devil number 2 is there to accompany you- LAZINESS. It is the whisper in your ears that told you to continue being in your lalaland an...

MIAMI. ORLANDO. PARTY. DISNEYLAND. SCENIC. SUNNY. ELATED! Yup, those words best describe the situation right now. Time passes so fast and half a semester is already gone yet again now. It is Spring break already and all I can think of is the happiness I can get from the break. Soon there will be the white sand under my feet and the sun rays on my skin. The smell of sea breeze will definitely be a good break from chilly cold wind of West Lafayatte. Oh yeah. It is finally the time where you can get wasted without feeling guilty of wasting your weekend and sometimes it's just good to let loose and be completely happy. This break is gonna be the first out of state trip ('cept Ohio and Illinois) I'd have with my friends and beloved ones! The bf and sister will be there with me and that is just what gonna make it perfect:) Despite knowing it will eventually end and the hell of school will haunt me again soon, I'd still put my 100 percent energy and soul to enjoy th...

Hi peeps! Here I am again writing as Spring break is coming in a few hours' time. In 24 hours I'd probably be on my way to Chicago O'Hare airport to take off to Orlando. Miami here I come! But before that, depressing moments always come to distract. So here I am trying to let off the steam before the break officially starts! The Moment. Have you ever have that life-crushing moment when you just get so paralyzed? Like a break-up? Or someone's death? Or major failure in general? That moment just have to happen in our lives at one time or another somehow. Like the God(s) just couldn't let us go with the rainbow sprinkled happy life. No. They say challenges in life keeps you stronger but it just don't make sense you see. yeah, just don't. My Moment. So as a college student who is working my fat and bones off for the grades, this semester has not been treating me great, again. I mean, I probably am at fault for not putting a hundred percent of my heart an...

Have you ever felt like you owe someone in an indirect way? Like perhaps that person did not even realize how much of an encouragement he/she has been to you and how much he/she has helped you in bringing who you are right now. It's like, seeing a stranger walking by and he gave you the sweetest greetings on your gloomy day. Most probably that stranger would have forgotten your face by the time he walked past you but you were just so grateful for meeting such a nice person. So, this is a letter. Or a message, I shall say.. To someone whom I feel greatly indebted to until this point in time and I know he is not in the best situation at this point. But although we are so far apart, I want you to know that you are truly remembered. To you... I still remembered vividly the first impression you formed in my head. I hated you. Well, I honestly can't understand why you have so many friends but you were so cold to me in that one class we had in secondary school. I mean, we were ...

5 Musketeers Sissy at her comfortable moment Chinatown CTA track Helloo there! It is finally winter break for us who have worked our heart and soul this semester and therefore, it is official that having fun is a legal thing. No more feeling guilty of enjoying ourselves at home or partying so hard every night cos it's HOLIDAY! weeheee~ So three days ago my friends and I took a trip down to Chicago and stayed there for a night before we took off on Monday. It was the most relaxing day I had in Chicago. There was no pressure as to visit as many places as we could like we used to, because we had all the time in the world. There was no car to bring us to places so we took the train. We headed to Chinatown for lunch and it took us a mere hour to get there when usually it takes at most 30 minutes by car. But it was a hell lot of fun! It was all worth it. The night was well spent in the hotel with deep dish pizza and poker games. My most beloved people were aro...

Hellow! It feels great to be back here again, getting my fingers on the keys again. Despite knowing that my writing is somewhat flawed (alright, it is majorly flawed), writing just brings natural joy to my life. So, here I am again, back with my random thoughts:) So, these few days have been totally hectic. Life is about studying, fast food and minimum amount of sleep. 3 exams in 24 hours was not fun at all. My head felt so light as if I am high on alcohol, I could never be clumsier during this period. Today marked the last major exam, which by the way, I studied just a few hours before the exam itself since I had another core class exam in the morning. BAM! I told myself that after all these craziness, I will: sleep sleep sleep..and.. SLEEP But the end is always different than what was planned. Despite not having anymore core exam, I am still in school right now. I guess it's the thing about having someone you truly care about. I just couldn't bear leaving Hery in ...